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On Friday, I had arrived an hour early at the Metaphysical Fair in Nixa, Missouri. I like to get to the fairs early so I can set up my table and clear my tarot cards before the fair opens to the public. I am excited to do readings at events, but I also tend to get very nervous. Even though I have been reading energy and tarot cards for over 25 years, I still get stage fright. I wonder if I am as good as the other vendors and readers. I think this is because I really want to do good for my clients and offer them messages that will resonate with them.

So, per my usual habit, once everything was ready, I decided to walk around the fair and work off my nervous energy. I began to walk around in circles and look at the other booths. I was saying hello to a few other vendors when I suddenly heard someone calling my name. I turned around to see Judy beckoning me over to her table.

Judy and I have seen each other at many fairs over the last few years. Judy is a lovely, beautiful, gifted woman who, along with her sweet husband, Chris, offers aura photography at events. As I walked over to her booth, she smiled and said, “Take a seat.” She pointed to a gray metal folding chair that was placed before a plain blue backdrop. Then Judy told me to place my left hand on a metal surface sitting on the table in front of me while she applied 3 clips to the fingers of my right hand.

“I need to test my equipment on somebody. I have to make sure my computer and printer are set correctly before the fair starts,” Judy told me. “You are going to be my guinea pig today!”

I smiled nervously at her words. I had an aura photograph done once before about 2 years ago. Judy and Chris had taken that photo as well, and Judy had exclaimed excitedly, “There’s my golden girl!” when she looked at my aura then. At that time, among all the other joyful things she said to me, Judy claimed that my energy was gold which signifies a higher spiritual knowledge. I was a little concerned. Would Judy still see a golden light around me or has it started to dim? I have been struggling a lot over the last year. My health hasn’t been great. My finances were in a bit of a shambles. 2024 was a hard year for me, and I have been trying to get back on my feet for the last few months of 2025. 

I sat silently with my hands in place as Judy adjusted her lights and camera. Judy excitedly turned her computer around to show me the 2 or 3 white orbs shooting all around my head and shoulders. “You have spirit guides all around you!” she stated. “There are 2 or 3 guides around you right now, and they are very active. They are moving very quickly all around you.”  Then Judy stated, “You energy is purple which is telling us your intuition is very high right now.”

Judy then printed out my photo and the paperwork that explained what the colors and shapes in my aura meant. Before giving me the documents, Judy sighed again and stated, “Your intuition is off the charts. It’s beyond normal. Your chakras are all open and balanced and you live off of high spiritual energy.”

As Judy talked about my spirituality and my life I wanted to cry, but I kept my emotions in check. According to Judy, my spirit was full and complete. I was living in a different realm and the colors reflected in my aura was a bright reflection of this.

When she had finished her reading, I thanked Judy deeply and offered to pay her for the information. She refused to take any money from me while saying again, “I have to do a photo for at least one person at the start of the fair. I can’t risk having my equipment malfunction in front of clients. You just happened to be the person I picked to help me this time.”

 Again I thanked Judy, and we shared a deep meaningful hug.

That day, my readings were comfortable, fun, and stress-free. I had a lot of great clients. I’m not always confident within myself, and I had needed that reassurance from Judy this morning to remind me of my own spirituality. Judy had given me a much-needed spiritual pep talk.

I wondered though if my autism may have anything to do with the colors and shapes of my energy. I wondered if my aura photograph was a reflection of my mental state more than my spiritual state, but I hesitated to ask Judy. I wasn’t at a place yet where I was comfortable talking publicly about my autism and mental health. I realize now that Judy, in all of her amazing wisdom, would have answered my questions to the very best of her ability. She would have addressed my concerns with kindness and sweetness. She wouldn’t have laughed at me or discriminated against me.  

And maybe I don’t need to know the line between my spiritual gifts and my mental state. Maybe it’s all one and the same. My spirituality could be a reflection of my mental state…or, I usually wonder, my mental state is a reflection of my spirituality.

I think of Judy and Chris’s kindness towards me and I suddenly realized something. I think that Judy, in all of her great spiritual wisdom and her amazing intuition, knows about me without having to say anything at all. Yes, I think this amazing, beautiful, and kind woman already knew but instead she commented on the size and shape and sense of my spirit. She had acknowledged that I was different but in beautiful and amazingly gifted ways. I carry Judy’s words with me now whenever I feel intimidated and scared of the other people. Someone looked into the other side of me, and she had found me surprisingly beautiful and complete. She has photographic proof!